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Guess what?!?!? This early, early morning, I received OVER NINE-THOUSAND PAGEVIEWSSSSS. And it was caught by myself. :/ So no gifting, sorry. I do have to say that I have a few art things to upload, that I really like, but I need to install the camera software first.

Weeeeeeell, so far, important things that have happened, let's see.... Not much, honestly, we've had a couple of MB competitions, which went okay. I have a solo, and it's really been okay, it's not too difficult, but unfortunately I am dead with nerves. There's been a few football games, including homecoming, and the homecoming dance. Drama leading up to the dance was completely different than I was expecting, but I suppose life does that to you sometimes. I ended up going alone, (surprise) but it was okay, honestly, for me not knowing most of the songs. I liked my dress, and guess what? I ended up getting contacts that morning, which I was able to wear for the dance. I don't mind my glasses, but I guess I like how it opens up my face.

To continue on the band thought, I've never felt this close to quitting before. Last Friday, I gave up on my section, (I'm section leader, who's responsible for making their section behave/know their music) and Friday was terrible. Not only were they screwing around, like sitting in the wrong order, they were dropping their instruments on the ground, and laughing about it. And, to put more salt in the wound, they couldn't even play the easiest pep music. (I mean, F-E-Eb, not the hardest notes, right?) I was fed up, and just stopped trying to correct them after a while.
And to be honest, that's the thing I'm most ashamed about. Not so much of playing wrong notes, but that I gave up on them. And it happened again in normal band on Monday.

So imagine the scene. You have already put your chair and stand out and go to get your instrument. You come back, and your stand is gone. Slightly peeved, especially when you know the person knows it was already claimed, as it had music on the stand, and the music is now stacked haphazardly on your chair, you ask who took it, and someone near you points out who did it. The person who did it is one of the drum majors, the people in band who you're supposed to look up to, the people who are really supposed to exemplify leadership, and so you ask if they took it. They lie. They say no, but the person who saw them persuades to tell them the truth. Barely ashamed, they utter that they can get you another one.

Is this really what leadership is like? If so, I'm growing increasingly intolerant of this band program if these are the leaders that are supposed to show everyone how's it's to be done, and the emotion and personal drive that's supposed to happen.

In any case, leadership is a lonely job. It seems as though my section has stopped talking to me, or even trying to correct something if I bring it to their attention.

Next week is the end of the first quarter, and I've already had two quizes, two tests, and I have yet another test, two essays and two large projects due. On top of it all, I'm very sick, congested, and can't breath if I inhale too quickly.

Definitely great when you have a band concert in 16 hours, and a major competition on Saturday.

So I apologize for the ranting journal, I promise art, and love, and blah blah blah. I'll make it through week, even if it kills me.